CHEMO IS OVER!! PARTY TIME!!!!

AHHH IT IS ALL OVER!!!

I CAN NOT BELIEVE THAT IT IS ALL OVER!!

NO MORE CHEMO!

NO MORE PICC LINE!!

AHHHHHH!!!

WOOT
WOOT
WOOT

THANK YOU TO EVERYONE FOR THERE WONDERFUL SUPPORT.
ESPECIALLY THOSE OF YOU WHO CAME TO LAST CHEMO TODAY, IT WAS SO SPECIAL FOR ME!!
FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO I DIDN'T INVITE TO LAST CHEMO, SORRY I COULD NOT HAVE EVERYONE.. BUTT KEEP YOUR EARS OPEN FOR A POSSIBLE CHEMO PARTY LATER IN THE YEAR!!

LOVE TO YOU ALL!!

SPREAD THE LOVE AND JOY!!

EAT CHOCOLATE (I KNOW I DID TODAY!!!)

~AMELIA XOX

P.S CAN YOU TELL I AM EXCITED WITH THIS WHOLE BLOG IN CAPS??? =P

1 Day!!

Ok I am SOOOOOOO Excited!!
LAST CHEMO IS TOMORROW!!! :)

Today, I spent the day at work... and I created a website for KADAC.
It is very simple, and deff not yet finished, but it is something.
It is one of my many projects to get done at work...

Anyways... ONLY 1 DAY (technically a few hours) to wait now!!

~Amelia xox

2 Days!

Today I played Taxi for the morning...

Since Mum stayed overnight in the hospital with Edd, I dropped Will off at school in the morning and then went to the Hospital to see Edd, and give Mum some clean clothes.
Edd was speeling when i got there (fair enough after an op, and at 9am!) so mum decideded that she should leave Edd to sleep and go home herself.

So I ended up driving Mum to work (where I stayed) and she picked up her car and drove home.
I stayed at work with dad.

About 1:30pm I started to feel extreamly tired, and headache-y so Dad drove me home. Where I proceeded to have a nap :) a 2 hour nap to be percise.
Then mum woke me up and we left to go see Edd in Hospital again.

When Mum and I got to Edd's room, he had so many visitors!!
He has his own entourage like me! :)
There was his friends, his girlfriend, and his friends girlfriend, and also Will and his girlfriend as well as Grandpa and mum and I.
Once everyone had left, we had some time with Edd alone, and then I took Will and his girlfriend home so that they could start their homework and eat dinner. Since they are both in yr 12 this year.

So all in all it was a long, emotional, stressful and busy day!

ONLY 2 DAYS LEFT!!! :)

~Amelia xox

3 Days....

Today I had my last appointment with Tony before Last Chemo on FRIDAY!!
We looked at the x-ray I had the other week, and my tumour has again shrunk alot.
He was not certain on the actual size on the tumour (or really scar tissue now), it is hard to tell in x-rays, so in 2 months after Chemo has clamed down... I will have all the major tests again.
These will show more accurately the size of the tumour or more... the scar tissue. I should call it scar tissue because as i am in remission there are no more tumour cells!
I also asked Tony if I could get my PICC Line out on Friday as well... it is getting so itchy and my skin is racting to EVERYTHING as it has now been in there for 6 months!!!

SO THAT IS SO EXCITING!!!! :D :D

However... my little *cough* baby *cough* brother (Edd) wen't into Hospital today.
Over the weekend he serverly hurt his left knee. Today he had surgery.
It must be so scary for him! He will also be out of action for basically the whole year!
So sad to think about what sports and activites he will be missing out on...
BUt I know he will be strong and get through it.
I actually am more worried about my parents. I am nearly finished in my journey, yes nearly. Recovering and re-cooperating for the next 6-8 months for me will be a change and something new to get used to. But now my parents have another child to worry about and stress over...

Oh Dear...

Anyways...
ONLY 3 DAYS NOW!!! :D

~Amelia xox

4 Days...

Today I just stayed home to look after Edd.

A friend of mine ended up coming over aswel and we just watched the Matrix.
So he has finaly seen all 3 of them now! LOL

ONLY 4 DAYS TO GO NOW!!

~Amelia xox

p.s all things seem to be resolved

5 Days...

Uni work is such a bore! Some one should have reminded me!
I have realised that it takes me almost twice as long to do any study than before because: -

1. I get tired quicker (i think due to levels of concentration and brain power required, as well as having cancer)
2. I am not used to it anymore after such a long break...

Well today, all I really did was uni work, and then we had a Fuller Family catch up.
So that was great to see all the Aunts, Uncles and cousins again.
There are a few family birthdays coming up, and my last chemo so that was the basis of our catch up.

Other than all that... I have just watched the last episode of CSI with Grissom in it!!!! I am going to miss him! He is such an awesome character!!

5 DAYS NOW!!!! :D

~Amelia xox

6 Days...

Shanghai Dumplings & Noodles in China Town is THE Bomb!

I just had to get that out there.
I went there today with one of my closest friends. It was Yummy!
We then proceeded to do what all girls do best.. Go Shopping!

Oh dear did I get carried away!
But I needed some new clothes, and especially a new bra. LOL
So for all you that love reading my blogs.. you must be interested in my life to read them I guess...
I bought: -

• A Dress
• T-shirt
• Buttoned Shirt
• Cardigan
• 2 pairs of Leggings
• Bra

I think that is great for only $200!!

Once I got home, I learnt that Edd had had a basketball accident and was in the hospital.. so I went to vist him (he is ok he just really badly hurt his knee) and ended up visiting the nurses at Ward 2 Central and got my PICC line changed... again!

Anyways...

THERE IS ONLY 6 days to go now!!

~Amelia xox

7 Days!

OMG ... This time next week LAST CHEMO will be OVER!! WOOT WOOT!!

Ok I will save my *happy dance* until then...

Today... Hmmm... Well I went to UNI!
I see you are shocked... No? Well you should be.. at least i was.
It was so sureeal going back, sitting in my lecture and tute, and remembering the last time i was there... oh dear I was SO SICK!! I can not believe it now...
So yes, I went to uni, and got in my 4 contact hours for the week, and let me tell you it is enough. I was exhausted when I get home this arvo! So my concentration and brain power... argh
I will get used to it again.. hopefully...

Other than Uni today, I went to the Hospital for my weekly PICC Dressing and Flush.
I knew there was something wrong with the previous weeks dressing because it has been bothering me over the past couple of days.. SO ITCHY! I've never broken a bone to know what the itchy-ness of a cast feels like.. but i think it is something like what I experience with the sticky patches. However finally after 6 months of being covered by sticky patches my skin has had enough and is reacting to them... so painful! When they had to clean the PICC Line with the antiseptic wash.. it was OMG PAINFUL!!! So painful in fact they had to get another type of antiseptic that did not have as much stinging stuff in it...
All in all I was not happy!

But... my day didn't end there.
One of my closest friends came over this arvo (after hospital) and we went out for dinner and then went to see "Confessions of a Shopperholic"!! SO Funny!
It was deffinatly THE BEST movie to see after a day like today :)
I also really need to read the books again... *Note to self: Locate book at home*

Now as it is getting late.. I shall sign off... I am slowly getting used to blogging every day...
ONLY 7 DAYS!!!! :D

~Amelia xox

8 Days...

Today I stayed at home and re-cooperated from my past couple of busy days. It was lovely! :)

What did I do: -

• Slept in
• Read my book (nearly finished Lance Armstrong, so inspirational!)
• Decided that I should do something relatively productive so I did some Yoga on the Wii Fit (So much Fun! I have now decided to try and do it for 30 mins everyday...)
• Made Pasta for lunch... ok not the most healthy choice... but so Yum!
• Then proceeded to do some Uni work...

Now you would think that everything would be easy for me just doing one subject at uni...
While some people call it being 'slack', I did not realise until today just how much MORE time than usual it took me to do things. Since I haven't done any uni work for 6 months my brain is dead.. and using it makes me tired! So much brain energy!
So I read and summarized one chapter for my lecture tomorrow.. and that was draining enough!
I needed a break.. so what did i do.. Called one of my best friends! :)
It was great to talk to her, and break up the study. Although I haven't yet gone back to it...
Oh well!!

8 DAYS TO GO NOW!!

~Amelia xox

9 Days...

Today I had a great day at work, but is was extreamly busy!
I have been put in charge of organising the Expos that KADAC is participating in this year.
There are 3 that we are doing: -

1. Good Food and Wine Show Melbourne (5-8th June)
2. Good Food and Wine Show Sydney (3-5th July)
3. Organic Expo (25-28th July)

It is going to be hectic trying to organise it all, but it will be rewarding once it is all over.
Anyway today at work we had the 'initial' meetings about the expos to organise who, what, when, where, how etc. And also so I could inform all of the dates, times, and that I would be the one inside KADAC organising it all.

However, once it got to 1630 this arvo I was exhausted to the point where I just felt like crying.. so I spoke to Dad, and we went home! I guess that is one of the perks of working for your Dad! :)
I then proceeded to have a 3 hour nap when i got home.. i was THAT tired!

ONLY 9 DAYS NOW!!

~ Amelia xox

10 Days...

Only 10 Days to wait!

Today I had a lovely day at work, talking to the lovely Kate about all things.
As we sit next to each other, and Kate usually is surrounded by Men (until the days I work) we have wonderful 'girly' chats everytime I am working! Hehe! :)

... All work is completed ... don't worry. Girls can MULTITASK!! :D

~ Amelia xox

11 Days...

11 Days until Chemo is over!
Not so long to wait now! :D

I am so excited, I now have 5 count downs going :

1. On the Fridge at home
2. At Work
3. On MSN
4. Facebook (in my status')
5. And now here

~ Amelia xox

The Battle...

It is humbling - and not so - to read Lance Armstrong's book about his battle with Cancer. Everyone I know that has read it has been inspired by his fighting spirit and reassurance in himself. But I guess unless you are also battling cancer you do not connect on the same level, that I do.

Reading the book and hearing all he went through, I can not help but relate it to myself, and my current battle. For many of the of the reactions and realisations that Lance has, are exactly the same. No matter the type or severity of the Cancer.
I know I have been blessed in receiving a so called "mild-er" version of cancer. Or what is called "the best cancer to get - if you had to" but even knowing that doesn't help all the low points.

There is reflection, and thinking. I know that myself, I can just drift off and forget who I am, what I was saying or doing, or what I was talking about / or to who. It can be highly useful at times but other times I don't even realise I am doing it until someone snaps me back, or I just come back on my own. Mostly this happens during or after Chemo, and the following days. (like today)

I blame the drugs surging around my body.

The day before Chemo and the days after Chemo are the worst. From feeling 'normal' to feeling like shit in a mere couple of hours is the worst feeling ever... I can not even start to explain it.
Not only does it leave you feeling helpless and that all you can do is hope that the Chemo is working - to kill the cancer... but it leaves you feeling vulnerable.

More vulnerable than I've ever felt in my life before.

It is a type of vulnerability that leaves your emotions on the line. You can be happy one minute, sad the next, then angry and crazy in the next couple of minutes. You never know what is coming, what is laying just underneath the surface.

It is the little things that you seem to react to...
whether it be someone staring at you because they have not seen anyone without hair before, or because you have absolutely no energy, that even walking up all of 20 steps to your bedroom is tiring enough. It could even just be a friend who has done something so unexpectedly for you "just because", and your feeling of admiration for them... or thinking about "that friend" you thought might be there for you through it all, but at the last minute gets cold feet, and pulls the rug out from underneath you.
Or it could even be just reflecting at a time like this. You are just feeling so many different emotions at one time.. that they can all surface so differently.

However, I would never be where I am now with out the support of my amazing family, and all my wonderful friends. You have all helped me more than I could ever Thank You for. I don't even know how I am going to repay you all for your kindness and generosity you have shown me. I just know that if anyone else was in my boat (and I hope that NONE of you will be), I would be there for them through thick and thin. Mind you I do believe that I would have done that even before going through all this myself.

Yet here I am rambling...
I guess reading about Lance Armstrong's memoirs of his battle has caused me to reflect - yet again - and I now feel the need to explain and share this with you all. :)

Reflecting and thinking is a natural process for everyone and now that I am nearly over the worst with my battle, it is as good a time as any.

ONLY ONE CHEMO LEFT!!! woot! woot! woot!

After that only a battery of test, 6-8 months rest and re-cooperation until I reach 'The Emerald City' (if anyone remembers me initially setting out on the 'yellow brick road' of cancer) and start living my life again with a whole new light on 'normal'. :D *happy dance* Plus I can still trump you all... "Don't blame me, blame the Cancer!"

Until next time... Eat Chocolate (it has an amazing tendency to help emotions)...

~ Amelia xox

P.s Still 5 hidden innuendo's

What have you been up to?

So It's been a month since I last posted a blog... Man time passes quickly!

So what has happened in a month...

1. I have been going into Work (at Kadac) roughly one day a week, it's been really good. At least I have something to keep my mind off things...
2. 2 more Chemo sessions have passed.. that means only 2 left!! :D
3. One of the Friday the 13th, has passed by.. only 2 more.. this year. I guess my theory is out the window. I origonally thought there were only 2 this year, making them both 'good' and two negatives makes a positive.
   
4. There was Valentine's Day...
5. I have been into Uni and sorted out what I am doing this semester. I am doing one subject, just to keep my self occupied, and my brain active.
6. I have had the usual blood tests, and also an x-ray
7. I have caught with heaps of friends :)
8. I have lost some things...
9. And gained some things...
10. Oh and I have semi-rearranged my room (really just organised it)
    

Wow and I thought I have been busy... I am sure there are somethings that I have happened, and I just can't think of the off the top of my head... If anyone knows of something I have left out let me know... and I am sorry in advance!

Until next time... Eat Chocolate! (I certainly have been!! :D)

~Amelia xox

P.s Hidden Inuendo's: 5